4st 7lb

LETRA

4st 7lb

I´ve eat too much to die
but not enought to stay alive
I´m sitting in the middle waiting

Days since I last pissed
cheeks sunken and despaired
so gorgeous sunk to six stone
lose my only remaining home
see my third rib appear
a week later all my flesh disappear
stretching taut, cling-film on bone
I'm getting better

Karen says I've reached my target weight
Kate and Emma and Kristen know it's fake
problem is diet's not a big enough word

I wanna be so skinny that I rot from view

I...want to walk in the snow
and not leave a footprint
I...want to walk in the snow
and not spoil it's purity

stomach collapsed at five
lift up my skirt my sex is gone
naked and lovely and 5st.2
my I bud and never flower
my vision's getting blurred
but I can see my ribs and I feel fine
my hands are trembling stalks
and I can feel my breasts are sinking

mother trys to choke me with roast beef
and sits savouring her sole ryvitta
that's the way you're built my father said

but I can change, my cocoon shedding

I want to walk in the snow
and not leave a footprint
I want to walk in the snow
and not spoil it's purity

Kate and Kristin and Kit Kat
all things I like looking at
too weak to fuss, to weak to die
choice is is skeletal in everybody's life

I choose, my choice, I starve to frenzy
hunger soon passes and sickness soon tires
legs bend, stockinged I am twiggy
and I don't mind the horror that surrounds me

self-worth scatters, self-esteem's a bore
I long since moved to a higher plateau
this discipline's so rare so please applaud
just look at the fat scum who pamper me so

yeh 4st. 7, an epilogue of youth
such beautiful dignity in self-abuse
I've finally come to understand life
through staring blankly at my navel.